Still Here

First off, Kate, I found your lost comments! WordPress marked them as spam for some odd reason. *blames Jan*

And now of course the serious stuff. Yes, my grandmother passed away on Sunday. She was not ill or sick, which is why my uncle and mother now want to see a lawyer. It was not a stroke. I was the last family member to see her alive. I was really upset at the time, but now I think I’m just in shock. I’m numb to the point where I have to remind myself she is in fact dead.

I did think of calling a few of you that day, or night rather. After we called 911 I thought of calling Kate for some reason I can’t recall. Then after being told she passed I thought of updating Niklas since I had told him she was being taken to the hospital. By the time I thought of calling Laura I was not in the right state of mind. It’s a good thing I didn’t call anyone, however, since I couldn’t talk and I hate people hearing me cry. Crying is such an awkward thing.

I was going to try and explain what happened that night, but I guess I’m not as ready as I thought.

7 thoughts on “Still Here”

  1. Me thought of calling you too! But my celly is not operational… and anyways, you could have said you just have an odd laughter and were watching Sponge Bob and me’d be fooled and never knew you were awkwardly crying salty tears. I don’t think tears ever really taste bitter… maybe if you’ve been eating loads of almonds or something.

    So it is really good you are not a squirrel because they just love almonds. I’ve seen them at it, all nibbling and biting them… tsktsk.

    Ooooh… and speaking of little animals… I saw a badger last night! It was eating something (A toad, I think… EWWWww) outside my window. Well, on the ground outside my window a few meters away. Kinda to the left half way up on the little hill… almost behind the fir but not really.. so yeah.

  2. Really sorry about your grandmother 🙁 I can understand how you feel… all numb. I went that way when my granddad died. I couldn’t even cry.

    You can call me any time of day or night, should you feel so inclined.

  3. I was thinking of calling! I am not just jumping on the bandwagon, I swear…but I didn’t want to intrude, in case you were with your family and didn’t feel inclined to talk. 😥

    I was so sorry to hear about your grandmother. *cough* I lit a candle in church for her, because I’m a bit of a sap and was feeling all catholic-y that day.

    Anyway. Feel free to call me anytime. ➡

  4. Hopefully this won’t be marked spam too! Not sure what to do about it…

    You can call anytime you like, or send a little email asking to call you if you’d rather.

    *has prayed for your grandma and family and will* Some people say that it’s even harder when a person passes away suddenly. I think that’s true. 😥 You have our support.

    ➡ Take care little ducky one.

  5. Hi, Marie… .

    I feel so sorry, this is so sad, I felt shocked when I read it- I knew you were going to visit her, and just to think you were the last one to see her… oh my god, sorry

    I don’t want to ask about it… if you want to tell us what happened that night -when you’re ready and feeling better- it’s okay, and it would help you a lot, but I want to say something

    Crying is good Marie, it helps the heart and the soul… don’t keep it inside you, it would just hurt… Crying is okay, please don’t think about it as something awkward and, if you feel you need it, cry and cry and cry… sometimes the soul really needs it

    I know I’m not a close friend, but I want to send you a Hug 🙂

    Sheila

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